Transparent process moment: Creating art is my therapy but sometimes l can’t bring myself to even do that. I’m extremely ambitious and driven so I can be pretty hard on myself when I feel like I’m not “doing enough.” There have been times i’ve literally cried because I didn’t scratch at least 2 things off of my to-do list (even if I was working at it the whole time—I just didn’t finish enough to scratch it off). This is me in art AND life.
I find myself having to be gentler with myself and give myself reminders saying, “Hey. It’s okay. We’re in a pandemic. You’re 600 miles away from your family. You haven’t eaten in days because the fridge is empty. Your job is not secure…and a series of other unfortunate events.” If you aren’t productive today, IT IS OKAY. So this resinated with me. Sometimes all I can do is hold myself together. And that’s okay. It’s all apart of the process.